Friday, June 23, 2006
I'm still trying to get over that catastrophe that was yesterday. But one must move on, for life is merciless. It's survival of the fittest. The strong shall live, and the weak shall die.
The initial feeling was frustration. Looking back, however, I've realized that there's always two sides in a story. On the dark side, simply put, I wasn't just able to logically express the idea that the professor wanted yesterday, and I felt that all the sacrifices were in vain. I also felt that I didn't deserve what I got, and looking back at what I have done for the past few days, there's no grave wrong that I have done to fully justify this story (tragedy) that God has inserted in my plot. It was uncalled for, and it was unfair.
But on the bright side, I figured that this is a great chance to discover myself further. I'm really interested on how I can react to the situation. I've never been a situation so complicated like this, with so much at stake. This is an opportunity to match or even exceed those who have been in the same situation like I have, and there have been many who have met greater success in spite of initial failure.
Today was definitely an improvement over yesterday. There's the newfound feeling of fulfillment, though the hard work is not over yet. I needed this break, because I've been skidding drastically in terms of confidence level recently. Accomplishing something is always a nice feeling, and I'm glad I also played a part in making other's visions to be fulfilled as well. But this chapter is merely beginning, I know.
I had a palm reading today, courtesy of my good friend Abbi. There are really mysterious things in this world, and this is one of this. How does one read what I am about just through the lines on my palm? Basically everything that she told me was right on the mark, except on those future events, because only God knows what will transpire next. She's right that I also worry over other people's problems. She's right that my heart is a complete mess. She's right that I have that muddled mix of small and medium complications. Hopefully she's right on the account that I will be able to be successful in the future. Kudos, Abbi.
All I hope is that come Monday I will be able to prevail. Failing is not so bad after all.
Nevertheless, the ennui continues at 7:12 AM
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